Beep Beep! All aboard the struggle bus! That’s the type of week and a half it’s been for me, but I think I am maybe…hopefully…emerging out of this. I always get a little bit of the holiday blues each year. It finally kicked in last week. It’s not as bad as years past. I just miss loved ones who have passed, and it seems like the world is in this mad rush. I try so hard not to get sucked up into it. I’ve been working on it.

Quieting the Noise
I decided to take a break from Facebook last week, and it has so far held up. I used to take little breaks, but curiosity would get the best of me, and I’d always go back to look. I just noticed that my feed was filled with ads, pages I followed (but didn’t necessarily care for anymore), and people I’m friends with but am not close with. I was more annoyed with my daily scrolling and began feeling “less than.” I would honestly close my Facebook account, but it’s how my son’s class parents communicate information, and our neighborhood watch page is there. I did find a workaround to get notifications when a post is made in these groups. I can click the notification, and it takes me directly to the group. No need to scroll a feed!
My online life was getting too noisy. I want to read ALL the blogs. I want to scroll ALL the feeds (Twitter, Instagram, Facebook). I want to look at ALL the sales and join ALL the groups. I’ve finally gotten it through my thick skull that I can’t do it ALL. So, this week I read a few posts from the blogs I enjoy the absolute most and pressed “mark all read” on my blog reader. I stopped looking at Facebook. I picked up physical books and read. I listened to relaxing music. I made lists.
Next Year, I’ll…
I was reading Deb’s post about how she was making a list of things she will do for next Christmas and chuckled because this is a list I started a week ago. I always mean to be more efficient and do some things differently for the holidays, and then I forget. I swear I’m going to budget better, cook more Christmas goodies, have all my shopping done early, and then I don’t. I don’t know why I expect different results when I don’t do anything differently.
That’s really become a theme of my life that I want to change. All the list-making, wishing, and dreaming won’t get me anywhere until I change my mindset and actually get UP and DO. I’ve been thinking deeply about this.
Thankful
I picked up a copy of One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp for a whole 10 cents at a thrift store a couple of weeks ago.

It’s a book I always meant to read and never got around to purchasing. I’ve read, and I’ve cried. I’ve learned some things, and I have started my own list of a thousand gifts. I think it’s the best 10 cents I’ve ever spent. I needed to be reminded that beauty is all around me, and I can be thankful even for the hard things.
So what’s my point with this post? I don’t know. I guess to admit that sometimes the holidays can bring about all the feelings and that it’s ok to retreat inside yourself a little to help find peace. I used to think self-care was a little too indulgent for my taste, but I’ve learned that even I need this so badly. We all need time to quiet our minds and recharge. A few years ago, I posted how our holidays have scaled down significantly from years past. It certainly helps. How are your holiday preparations going? Are you taking time for yourself? I’d love to hear your thoughts.






























